Sunday!

Preaching time tomorrow!

I've never written a sermon in my life. For those of you that know me, that must come as a bit of a shock, but it's true. When I stand up there on that stage (and then wander around after I've started talking) I have no written backup, and speak straight from my heart. My words come straight from God. Sometimes I'm not even sure what I'm saying, but it all makes sense in the end, and I can see how God needed to get that across in our church. By writing a sermon for your Sunday, you deny God the chance of working through you. It becomes a seminar, where I'm talking to people via my own experience and I may be misleading people without realizing it. By not writing anything, I open up that passage for God, allowing him to step in and speak through me. Just thought I'd put that down. :D

Testing

Set up e-mail blogging today, just testing it out, making sure it works, testing for limitations. <b>This text is bold</b> <i>italics</i>

We as Human

Found an awesome band the other day, with such hit songs as Fly and Dead Man, videos attached below. Christian rock music, and some pretty amazing stuff at that. Only problem is I can't seem to find any of there music. It's not on torrent sites, I can't find it at the local christian store or any other music store for that matter. Anyone who has any clue where I can get a copy of any of there CD's, and maybe even the guitar chords to some of there songs, expecially Fly please let me know. Amazing band, you should all check them out! :)

K&K

I got up this morning, and the second I sign into MSN I get a message from.... we'll call him Jack. The message said that shit hit the fan. It all blew up. My heart sank into my feet. He showed me a log about what happened and I just about cried. She thought he didn't want the relationship when he did. She thought it was ruining him when it wasn't. She thought it would be better if they split when that was wrong. Her biggest fear since day one had been that if they ever broke up, they'd never talk again. But she was so scared here, that out of love for him she promised to never speak to him again. She's confused to think that, they both don't want it, but each one thinks the other wants it. they're both confused, it's Jack's first time in a relationship, he was just nervous. I'm afraid of what he might do in his mourning, that he may hurt himself, others, or make matters worse, seal the fate just because he didn't know it was salvageable.

I don't know why this case means so much to me. I've never even met Jack, never met Jill. But yet this case means more to me than most of my IRL cases, including a personal one. I don't think I've ever gone this deep, I don't think one of my cases has ever meant this much to me. I don't even want to call it a case, it's more than that, it means SO MUCH to me!

Countdown and Header Image

First of all I'd like to point out that full credit for the header image used for this blog goes to Kn1ght, who was nice enough to make it for me way back when. In the header image you see a few guys, these guys are members of the band Thousand Foot Krutch, one of my personal favourite bands. you can take a peak at a few videos below to see who they are and what they play :) This blog is also named after one of Thousand Foot Krutch's songs, Rawkfist, which is also my common username.

Second of all I'd like to explain the countdown going on at the bottom of the page. As a pastor who's very active with his you group, I attend a "Youth Retreat" with my youth every year, this retreat is a big thing for us, and I place that countdown there for them to use to get an accurate measurement of how long 'til Youth Retreat this March.

Victoria

Victoria is forcing me to write this at the moment. I'm talking to her right now. She's threatening me. Telling me she'll destroy me if I don't post this. So here it is Victoria! Spare me my life!

Boo!

Stayed home from work today. Was a pretty boring day actually. Got up around 8, talked with Kye for a few hours, got to talk to Crow for the first time in a long while too actually. Went down to the pawn shop beside the gas station and picked up a new guitar stand for my guitar. Came back, strummed for a few hours, cleaned the computer out a little bit, strummed s'more, ordered pizza for supper, and had a short chat with Kn1ght. And now here I sit.


Apart from that, I'd like to point out that this blog will be a log of my day-to-day life. A little bit about me: My name is Alan, I'm 29 years old, have a son and am currently seperating from my wife :(. This blog may contain dramatic posts and/or rants about different things, some of which may or may not seem meaningless to you. This blog also may contain some information not meant for all eyes, and viewer discretion is advised. This blog may contain reviews of bands, movies, concerts, brands of equip, and tech-related information. Anything not mentioned here may also be contained in future blog posts.